Haiz. D:

Everyone keep telling me to cheer up.
Everyone keep telling me to forget him.
Everyone keep saying tat he is not worth it.
But everyone is wrong.
He is worth alot alot alot to me.
He still does.
I dont want to cheer up.
And I cant cheer up.
Plus I just cant forget him.
Cuz my heart still belongs to him.
And I just cant get him out of my mind.
I cant let you and our relationship go.
I dont know why.
Maybe you are part of my life/world now.
All of this to you, maybe is a joke.
But to me, is true.
Maybe you are just playing wif my feelings.
But i dont care at all.
I mean it.
Baby, please dont go.
I cant live without you.
I need to remember tat everything is not the same anymore.
You doesnt belongs to me anymore.
But i'm still yours.
My life/world just came crashing down.
I dont want to lose you but i did anyway.
After you destroyed my life/world,
you just left me all alone in the darkness.
I want to cut.
But i promise alot of ppl tat i wont hurt myself.
So i going to keep my promise to them.
Especially Daddy, Baby Lollipop & Nuer.
I want to die.
Can someone kill me?
I NEVER WANT TO BELIEVE IN FOREVER & LOVE ANYMORE.
I learned my lesson.
I should learn to give up on you & move on wif my life/world.
I should learn tat you're not mine anymore,i should just give up.
I need to let you go.
And to let our relationship go.
But I just cant & dont want.
Cuz you're my everything.
And you will always be.
I still love you.
And I still need you.
I dont want to get hurt anymore.
I love & need you more & more each day.
All thanks to you, my life/world suck.
But i wont blame you.
Cuz i still love & need you.
Will you come back to me?
Should i just give up or continue?
i dont know what to post le.
So bye bye.
Miss Die All Of You.
Especially you.
I'm very confused.
{Love}